Prayers needed

I didn't want to post about this but I know I need to. We had an ARD on Friday and Andrew's one on one aide was removed from the picture. The special ed coordinator made a lot of great arguments as to why he does not need one. I don't want him to have an aide unless necessary and I didn't and still don't know what to feel. I discussed our frustration with a lack of progress being made in school and they suggested summer school as well as a teacher conference regarding goals. I left the ARD crying and feeling like somehow I have let Andrew down, like I didn't try hard enough for him. Ofcourse I could call an ARD meeting anytime and argue with them, I just struggle with knowing if he really needs the assistant. They assured me the ratio in the class will still be 1 teacher or assistant to 2 children and that does make me feel good. We are leaving at 4 tommorrow morning to head for Andrew's aptmt at the Blue Bird Rett Clinic in Houston. We will be their for 2 days for aptmts with neurology, GI, and dentist. Maybe they can help me see things clearer and I just pray that they will be able to help us as I sometimes feel like all the aptmts don't tell us much. As for the job situation, my current position is going to counter offer, so I still don't know what to think, regardless of how much either is willing to pay me. Money isn't everything and I just want Andrew to be ok, which I know he will. Please pray for peace in both situations and for some rest, lately I am feeling a little stressed. I will try to post more when I get to Dallas for my training, and thank you Dad for taking Andrew all the way back to San Antonio, you are the best!